Proving Myself

You will become pregnant and have a son whose head is never to be touched by a razor because the boy is to be a Nazirite, dedicated to God from the womb. He will take the lead in delivering Israel from the hands of the Philistines.” From Judges 13

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Samson was chosen by God to deliver the Israelite’s from their enemies before he was even born. The angel of the Lord appear to his parents and tells them they will have a son and then tells them what his role will be. He isn’t even born yet, and God already has chosen him. The only qualification Samson has met at thi point, is just God saying so.

I am a doer. I like to work hard, prove myself. And days when I don’t work hard, I feel like a failure. And there isn’t anything wrong with being a hard worker, but God has been showing me this last year how my identity can not be all wrapped up in it. I waist alot of energy and time trying to prove to God (and anyone who is watching) why I should be picked for the team, or chosen for the big role, or even noticed at all.

What’s interesting is that when we zoom out and read Samson’s entire story we see a man who makes a lot of mistakes, he sleeps with the enemy, ignores God’s rules, makes big mistakes, disobeys God, sleeps with a prostitute and leaves a wake of death in his path. He is hardly a model citizen. But God still uses him. Now I believe his story could have been a lot less dramatic if he had done things differently, but none the less, God did not let Samson’s mistakes disqualify him for his role. God still used him to deliver his people just like he said he would even before he was born.

So if I spend my whole day just working away like a busy hamster on a wheel, trying to prove to God that he should pick me for a role, I might very well be missing entirely the role He has already assigned to me. And if i waist hours fretting over my mistakes I will undoubtedly miss opportunities to join God in His great plans for me today. God can use anyone- even me. I want to embrace that today.

God, Thank you That you Already have the perfect role in mind for me. You have plans for me, that have been in the works long before I came on the scene. I don’t want to miss what you are doing. I don’t want to squander my life away, when you are waiting for me to take your hand and jump into my life right now. Holy Spirit, would you help me be here in this moment and choose in right now to all you have for me today.

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